
sweater, vest, & bag: thrifted, dress: estate sale, tights: target, shoes: charlotte russe
I graduate in December and I keep hearing the same question over and over again, "What are you going to do after you graduate?" I reply with the same answer every time: "Have babies." Then I get a look like, "Seriously?" and I smile and explain that I have my internship in January and then who knows!
I attend an LDS school with students who share my faith. It shocks me a little bit that every time I say "have babies" that I get a look like I'm a crazy person. Which, actually might be true. But what's wrong with wanting to be a mother? That's what I believe my calling in life is. I got my education, which was extremely important to me. But now that that door is closing, another chapter of my life is about to begin and nothing would make me happier than to raise children.
We live in a generation where the world tells us, "Go get jobs! Make lots of money! That will make you happy!" And while money is essential to life, it is not everything. As a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints we believe that:
"The family is ordained of God. Marriage between man and woman is essential to His eternal plan. Children are entitled to birth within the bonds of matrimony, and to be reared by a father and a mother who honor marital vows with complete fidelity. Happiness in family life is most likely to be achieved when founded upon the teachings of the Lord Jesus Christ. Successful marriages and families are established and maintained on principles of faith, prayer, repentance, forgiveness, respect, love, compassion, work, and wholesome recreational activities. By divine design, fathers are to preside over their families in love and righteousness and are responsible to provide the necessities of life and protection for their families. Mothers are primarily responsible for the nurture of their children. In these sacred responsibilities, fathers and mothers are obligated to help one another as equal partners. "
There is nothing wrong with wanting to be a stay at home mom. I think it is the greatest job any woman can hold. I'll be turning 22 this December and while some of you are probably thinking why on earth why would I want to have children at this age, I know in my heart being a mom is what I was sent to this earth to do. Children terrify me. I'm awkward around them and I don't know what to say. But I know that if I trust God and his plan for me that I will be able to overcome my fears and be the mother I dream of being.
I love being a woman. I love being able to one day hold the title of mother, mom, mommy, mum, that lady that carries me around. Being a woman is powerful. We have the ability to create a human life! (with a little help from the men ;) I'm not pregnant. Who knows when I will be. It's all God's timing. But I am his servant and a mother is what I know he wants me to be.