GUYS. You do not know how hard it was for me to post pictures of me in a swimsuit on the internet. I debated a long while if I should even dare taking pictures of myself in said swimsuit. But after awhile, I just kept thinking about body image and how SO many women (myself included) deal with those evil thoughts in our minds dictating what we do. I'm not a size 0, I probably will never be a size 0 in my life again, but holy hell my body is such a gift!
I've struggled with how my body has looked for the past 2 years. From the age of 15 until I turned 20, I stayed the same weight. I was happy with my weight. I was glad that I had been able to keep the same weight for so long. But when I got married, I packed on some pounds and my self esteem went into the ground. I thought I was fat, disgusting, and ugly. Weight had NEVER been an issue for me. I ate whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted, and I never cared. But then something happened. I grew up. My body transformed and I got a woman's body. I went from having no boobs, no curves, and no hips, to being endowed with some knockers and a figure. It's taken me 2 years to finally say it, but I do love my body.
Sure these pictures are a little embarrassing and I can definitely see every single flaw that I have, but I just feel grateful that I have a body that God blessed me with. PLEASE fellow sisters, lady friends, and pals, stop hating the body that you've been given. We're all so beautiful in our own and special ways. And honestly, I truly believe that our worth is WAY more important than what we look like on the outside. So stop calling yourself fat. Stop saying, "I'll be happy when I lose 10 pounds." Stop comparing your weight to your best friends. You are more than how many numbers show up on the scale. You have been given so many wonderful gifts and don't let your weight keep you away from being the best you.
GAH! I'm scared to push publish. But I need this. And I hope one of you out there needs this too.