Q&A

dress, vest, & shoes: thrifted, tights: target

Do you guys have any questions that you want answered? I thought I'd do a little Q&A. Ask me ANYTHING ya wanna know. Have your questions in by... Wednesday? Or if no one responds that's a okay.

Ranae Bailey Beckstead.

sweater, shirt, shoes: thrifted, skirt: I can't remember the name of the store...

My grandma passed away 11 years ago today. I think I was 8 and what I do remember is loving her. She was a beautiful woman inside and out. 

She made cakes. Probably hundreds in her lifetime. I remember right before she died, my sister wanted her to make her wedding cake but she was too ill to do so. I know that broke my grandmothers heart that she couldn't. In third grade she made me a barbie cake. You know the cake's that have the barbie standing up and her dress made out of cake? Yup. My grandma made that just for me. 

She made beautiful jewelry. One Christmas I remember she made rings and necklaces for all of her granddaughters  They were handmade with such love and talent. One day I wore them to the pool and in the locker room I took them off to go swim and I forgot them there. I wish so badly that I still had that ring. My sisters both wear theirs to this day and I can't help but be a little jealous.

She crocheted blankets. On another Christmas she made blankets for all of her grandchildren. All 20 of them. I can't even imagine how much time that took her. I still have mine to this day. It's laying at the end of my bed at home. It's a part of her that I will always have with me. After she died, my grandpa let me have as many blankets as I wanted that she made. I love the detail that my grandma put into each blanket. Each one is different and unique.

There are two things that I remember about my grandmother the most--her hugs and her hands. She gave the best hugs. She squeezed you just the right amount. Not too hard, but enough to let you know and feel how much she loved you. I had a couple cousins say that when she died, they felt her hug them. I can't wait to feel that hug again. The second are her hands. She worked hard her whole life and you could tell by her hands. But I always remember just thinking  they were beautiful. They were small but strong and I feel that she used her hands to express her talents. Aside from baking, jewelry making, crocheting, she was an amazing bowler and cook. I remember the last time I saw her bowl, she got a turkey! Her hands were her talents and she shared them with every one around her.

Before she died, I remember praying that God would just make her better. My dad then had to tell me that sometimes it just doesn't always work that way but soon she would be released from her pain and be in a better place. I know that she watches over me. I have felt her presence in my life. I know for a fact she was there on my wedding day. 

I could go on and on about my sweet grandma. She couldn't say Washington correct to save her life and we all teased her about it. She went on walks everyday. She had dark tan skin. She was beautiful. 

I was young when she died and I feel as though I didn't get to know her as well I wish. But I know that there if life after this and I will be able to visit with her and learn more about her. I love my sweet memories of her and I will always hold them dear to me.

Ranae Bailey Beckstead; I love and miss you. I'll see you soon. I can't wait to hug you.

Hot lips.

dress & belt: thrifted, shoes: IF mall

I don't wear a lot of make-up, but having a dramatic lip with minimal make-up is what I just love. 

In November, I did "no make-up November" and it has changed my make-up routine since. I use to wear a pound of eyeshadow and always had cat-eyeliner. I hated walking out of the house without it. I felt as though I really needed it. I couldn't even fathom not wearing it. Going out in public without it was just barbaric. 

But after not wearing make-up for a month and trying to go back to my make-up routine before was not happening. All I wear now is mascara. I don't even know how to put eyeliner on anymore. I put it on once or twice after November and I had no idea what I was doing--so I just decided to not even try. I go through faces of eye shadow. Sometimes I like it, sometimes I don't. Right now is a don't. 

I love the feeling of having a fresh face. 

That was a lot of rambling.

Sweather.

sweater, dress, shoes: thrifted, glasses & tights: forever21

It is officially sweater weather, friends. I love how crisp it feel outside. I love the colors of the leaves that change all too fast. I love wearing scarves. I love holding hands in Rob's jacket pocket. Thanks for showin up fall.

Lately.

skirt, blouse, belt, purse: thrifted, shoes: gift

It's been a busy week my friends! Busy but good. Here is what happened:

1. General Conference blew my mind. I felt so much love and happiness from those men and women who stood at that pulpit and proclaimed their love for Christ and our Heavenly Father. I definitely learned so much and am trying everyday to implement the counsel given. I especially loved this talk. President Uchtdorf always inspires me to be better. Such a precious man.

2. My financial aid FINALLY came in. Only a month late! It was such a hassle but I am so grateful for the funds that I am able to receive to go to school. Also a BIG thanks to my mom and dad for paying my tuition when it was due. I'm happy I get to pay them back this week.

3. I deleted my facebook. It's kind of a long story but basically, I just got jealous every time I logged on. I saw pictures of friends doing fun things and was sad that I wasn't invited/there. It was making me feel less than I was... that my life was boring. So, I deleted that negative impact on my life. I didn't really care about half the people I followed anyway. I was becoming jealous and sad for no reason. To be completely honest, I don't miss it at all.

4. I might have found an internship. I don't want to jinx it because I haven't applied yet, but I toured the facility on Wednesday and I had the most amazing experience. I felt like I could really contribute and make a difference AND do something that I love and have a testimony of. I know that's really vague, but it's not even near to being set and stone. I of course need to apply first. 

There's lately for ya.

Come listen to a prophets voice!

I won't be posting this weekend. I'll be busy hearing the words from that cute man above, a prophet of God. Are you looking for peace, comfort, advice, love, courage, happiness? I recommend watching General Conference this weekend. I know it can changes lives. I have felt so much happiness from following the words that are said. I promise you won't regret it. See ya next week! Have a fabulous weekend :)

White Hair.

shirt, jeans, shoes, bag: thrifted, headband: I made it

I found a white hair in my bangs the other day. I ran out into the living room and said: "Rob! Look! It's a white hair!" Then Rob said: "Why are you excited about that?" And I of course said :"Because it's cool." I really want white hair. I'm not scared of growing old and actually, I'm really excited to one day to have long, wavy, white hair, with wrinkles on my face, and a history of happiness behind and ahead of me. 

I've been influenced by my grandmothers so much and I hope that I can be just like them. Happy women who love (and loved rip grandma b.) their lives. So bring it on white hair! I can't wait to have my whole head covered with you.