August 9, 2012
dress, sandals, belt: thrifted
While I was in Washington, I really discovered what matters to me. There are so many things in this life that get in the way and ruin our perceptions of happiness; I'm definitely guilty of this. I worry about my hair, how I look, what I'm wearing, what others think of me, how little money I have to my name, the lack of friends I have... But when it comes down to it all, these things are minimal to my happiness. There's a quote on campus that I think of often. It states: "On one's pursuit for happiness, one should just stop and be happy." We're all on this hunt for what happiness is. But have we ever thought to just stop, be still, and think of all the beautiful things in this life? I'm overwhelmed with gratitude for the beauty in my life; the gospel, my loving and dear husband, my supportive family, my education, the talents that God has given me. I get exhausted with trying to be the person I feel like people want to be. I try so hard to please others. I've done this my whole life. I put others wants and desires before my own happiness. Which, really, may not be a bad thing, but I deserve happiness as well.
I've decided to get ride of the things that don't matter and replace them with things that make me happy. I worked out this morning for the first time in months, I'll make dinner tonight, and maybe even get some sewing in today. I'll spend time with my love and clean our living room, because it's make me feel all domestic like.
I'm in charge of my happiness and finding what makes me happy starts today.